Absurdly long 2,500-word-plus goofy-sex scene: done.
Still to write: probably absurdly long vaguely mildly rough and tumble-sex scene, flashbacks, and gratuitous Bucky-centered puppy pile.
IDEK with this fandom. I really don’t.
Also still to do: post my Club Vivid vid, which hasn’t been a burning issue since it’s kind of a fandom of two. Not that I feel like there’s much point to the other stuff, but at least it will be complete.
Also also need to remaster my first Captain America: The Winter Soldier vid Shelter now that there’s good source.
Of course, everything’s contingent upon being able to get out of bed.
Chapter 5: Déjà Vécu Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James “Bucky” Barnes/Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers & Sam Wilson, Steve Rogers/Sam Wilson, Steve Rogers & Tony Stark, Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov Characters: Steve Rogers, James “Bucky” Barnes, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Peggy Carter, Tony Stark, Bruce Banner, Pepper Potts, Clint Barton, Thor Additional Tags: Memory Loss, Recovery, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Healing, World War II, Flashbacks, Soooo Many Flashbacks, Identity Issues, Find Bucky, Everybody Just Wants Steve To Be Happy, Pre-Serum Steve Rogers, Implied/Referenced Torture, Longing Series: Part 2 of Dark Approach Chapter Summary:
"I think it’s going well and I can help him and maybe we can be friends again, and then…he’s just always so angry at me. He goes from zero to conniption in sixty seconds."
Okay, but listen. In Winter Soldier you have Natasha trying to set Steve up, you have Sam asking what makes him happy, you have Steve telling Peggy he just wants to know who he’s fighting, and Sitwell telling us they used the past to determine someone’s future.
These are questions and ideas the narrative sets up to be answered and they’re answered by bucky’s re-appearance in steve’s life.
This is the best logic for shipping Steve/Bucky that I have ever encountered.
OK, but, BUT! You also have Steve saying it’s hard to find someone with SHARED LIFE EXPERIENCE.
And thus begins our long national nightmare: Saw Captain America: The Winter Soldier for what will be the last time (my 14th!) in the theatre today. It’s leaving the last of the second-run theatres this week, and I don’t know how I’m going to live till there’s a truly decent source.
Can we just talk about the moment when the Howling Commandos realize that the only reason any of them made it out is because Steve loves Bucky That. Fucking. Much.? That if Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes were just a tiny bit less adorable, they’d all be dead?